Monday, July 31, 2017

8.5 months

I stopped seeing the naturopath.  I'm not on any supplements any more.  I'm also not strict about the diet- I eat gluten multiple times a week, although less than before I went gluten-free.

The jig is up.  The pain is all psycho-somatic.  Not a lack of some nutrient, vitamin, or protein.

Landmark insights and self -insights are helping me see that I tighten up nearly all the time when I'm 'witholding'.  Add that to the fact that I never let things go or feel good about myself- there's all my body pain.

Just two nights ago, I did this thing where I acknowledged all my deepest mental hurts.  Various parts of my body- back, stomach, legs, let go.  I'm in alot less pain, and I think its going to keep getting better (as long as I keep acknowledging my hurts).

Man, I'm sorry I spent so much money and time with Dr. Olsen.  I didn't know why I couldn't stop, even when it wasn't helping.  I guess thats something that is hard for me- finding fault in others but not saying it.  The proper thing to say would have been- none of these supplements are doing any good, and if you agree that its psychosomatic, why am I wasting my money here?  Of course, I liked being there and I liked seeing the doctor, and my life is so pathetically isolated outside of doctors.

Anyways..  I'm thinking alot about Landmark (SHARE, SHARE, SHARE) which is driving me crazy.  When am I going to cut the mind wandering bullshit, and take credit for what I have done rather than act like "Landmark" did it?

Things are going good - I could be pain free by the end of the year.

I quit with Dr. Greene after 4 weeks of 3x/week.  It was helping a little but not much.  I look forward to getting some more adjustments once I can stabilize my body being looser. 

Sunday, July 9, 2017

7.5 months (quit with the naturopath)

Quit with Dr. Olsen,
started with Dr. Greene with chiropractic 3x/week.

So far, he gives really good neck adjustments!
My back isn't feeling much better.  But my body in general- I'm moving a teensy bit better.

So many supplements with Dr. Olsen, did any of them ever help?

Lots of waking up at 4 AM these past few weeks, and not feeling tired at night.  The usual.