It's been crazy. I took it for four days and had all sorts of shit happen that I didn't attribute to the meds (my bad; well, my doctor's bad for not telling me that antibiotics can have all sorts of side effects.)
I got alot of muscle relief, similar to the antifungal, but even more so.
But, I got a seriously terrible amount of headache, gas, and discomfort.
So, it was a die-off reaction? What the hell do I even have?
I'm actually pretty scared that I've secreted a bunch of toxins into my system now, and could have long-term effects of that. Who knows? And what happened to being a nature lover who wanted to be all natural blah blah, and now I'm just going full- scale western med on whatever I have. sad.
I was taking it for my vaginal infection, but its giving me all these systemic effects.
I wish I knew more about medicine. This sucks.
It also sucks that I keep being so totally wrong about my healthcare. For example. being sure that my back pain was psychosomatic "because 80% of pain is human created" (Sadhguru), and "80% of back pain is psychosomatic" (that book about psyhcosomatic pain.
And just now- being so sure I had the stomach flu, (and telling people that!), when in fact I was having a response to flagyl. God, I just have no flipping idea when it comes down to it. My doctor knows more than I do. Although, he never seemed to think that I had a rogue infection causing my problems..
update- I learned later over the week that the reason I was having such as insane reaction wasn't ONLY the fact that I was taking the antibiotic. It had something to do with taking the antibiotic along with the antidepressant. When I stopped taking the antidepressant a few days later, my head returned to normal and my headaches went away. Sadly, my incredible releasing muscles went away too, it was related. My doctor said 'too much serotonin'. hmph.
While this whole incident was pretty strange (who knew that antibiotics could have an effect on antidepressants), I was actually on only half of the lowest dose of the antidepressant Trintellix. Can you imagine, I would have been out of my mind had I been taking to full dose..
Thursday, January 25, 2018
January 2018
This month has been a real doozy of watching myself react, then not react, to the anti fungal. I also started taking the antibacterial called Flagyl, which I'll get to later.
So here's what been happening with the anti-fungal.
I take it on Sundays.
On Mondays- I wake up with much less pain (unimaginably less) pain than the day before. I wake up, and because I can, I do a quick yoga-type 'upward dog' stretch, and that causes my upper back to have a nice little crack. To be clear- nice little cracks NEVER happened before I started taking anti-fungals. I just couldn't move.
Over the next few days, I will have times of impressive amounts of movement/energy in my body, and that correlates with my doing massage and laying down and letting my muscles relax on their own to move into the right places. But it goes in and out, its not like a whole day of it. Also, these days are associated with me talking and singing to myself quite alot more than usual. My voice comes out so loud and clear (for me; probably just normal for anyone else). I am surprised at the changes to my voice; but its just because the muscles around my face and jaw are relaxed.
Then by thurs/fri/sat/sun it keeps happening, but I notice that I'm in so much more pain, can't walk, can't bend, can't tie my shoes, can't shower, hate everything, etc. And I have despairing thoughts. And I just cannot stop make back from rounding in and my chest holding. I realize I can't work, because I can't sit in a chair. I stop doing the talking, the singing; I become disconnected because I don't want to be around people. My face - the wrinkles are set; I seem to be clenching my jaw and face without realizing it or doing it on purpose. Communication becomes harder in general, even small questions. 'How are you?' questions become this big deal to answer.
Umm yeah. Then I wake up Monday after having taken it Sunday and I'm fine again. Of course, fine being something that I haven't ever experienced in the last 15 years before I took this antifungal.
However, during this whole thing- I am having insomnia. And I am having back pain that still isn't good enough to get a message or allow me to stand still and to walk. Even with all that body relaxing, the muscles that would allow me to walk in my back just aren't working right.
So here's what been happening with the anti-fungal.
I take it on Sundays.
On Mondays- I wake up with much less pain (unimaginably less) pain than the day before. I wake up, and because I can, I do a quick yoga-type 'upward dog' stretch, and that causes my upper back to have a nice little crack. To be clear- nice little cracks NEVER happened before I started taking anti-fungals. I just couldn't move.
Over the next few days, I will have times of impressive amounts of movement/energy in my body, and that correlates with my doing massage and laying down and letting my muscles relax on their own to move into the right places. But it goes in and out, its not like a whole day of it. Also, these days are associated with me talking and singing to myself quite alot more than usual. My voice comes out so loud and clear (for me; probably just normal for anyone else). I am surprised at the changes to my voice; but its just because the muscles around my face and jaw are relaxed.
Then by thurs/fri/sat/sun it keeps happening, but I notice that I'm in so much more pain, can't walk, can't bend, can't tie my shoes, can't shower, hate everything, etc. And I have despairing thoughts. And I just cannot stop make back from rounding in and my chest holding. I realize I can't work, because I can't sit in a chair. I stop doing the talking, the singing; I become disconnected because I don't want to be around people. My face - the wrinkles are set; I seem to be clenching my jaw and face without realizing it or doing it on purpose. Communication becomes harder in general, even small questions. 'How are you?' questions become this big deal to answer.
Umm yeah. Then I wake up Monday after having taken it Sunday and I'm fine again. Of course, fine being something that I haven't ever experienced in the last 15 years before I took this antifungal.
However, during this whole thing- I am having insomnia. And I am having back pain that still isn't good enough to get a message or allow me to stand still and to walk. Even with all that body relaxing, the muscles that would allow me to walk in my back just aren't working right.
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